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Friday, June 6, 2008

❤ WelCoMe To Moii Page NoRhx ❤

Feel like writing a post of my feelings today...
dun neo why and when i had a habit of spilling my thoughts and happiness on the web, maybe i feel that writing a blog actually makes me feel even better...

why can't i forget the phobia which i had in the past?
why can't i just take it as if everything is a starting point?
why can't i forget all the unhappiness which i having now since i can forgive?
My life is as suck as last time, am i making myself miserable?

The hurt i had actually is as deep as a cut through my heart...
i dun wanna think so much, but somehow it just comes into my mind...
MY MIND is as suck as who am i now...

A phobia? what does that means...? can this phobia just get out of my mind as soon as possible... i hate to carry it with me anywhere i goes... damn freaking hate it... it makes me loses all my concentration... all my confidents... all my mood, turns me into a freaking weirdo...

who can stand a weirdo... who can really understand what a weirdo thinks... I AM THE KIND of weirdo... thinking too much, scared this and that... am i cautious? nope... i don't think that so... am i a cry baby? of cause, cos in the past, there are so much tears i wanna spill out but i managed to swallowed down into my throat... why the world is full of emotions... why can't a person lives happily... just like a fairy tales... HAPPILY EVER AFTER....!!!! but can i do it... ? i hope to do so...

Dear, it's kinda hard for me to share my problems with u, cause u might left me one day, or i might leaves u one day... and all along, i bottled up all my feelings and emotions in my heart (serious matter)... The reasons is because i don't allow my loved ones to sink into full of emotions just like me... u know...

People always says i am a brave and strong gal... but am i really the ones? i was wondering... maybe yes or maybe no... maybe all along, i was just acting brave.... acting strong... pretending to be firm... pretending to be who am i... but..... who am i? until now, i still cannot find the answer... i tried umptum times to forget... but end up... i cannot...

GOD!!! are u blind... can't u see i am crying over here... can't u see i am suffering from so many problems? i am only 22yrs old girl... i don't deserve to carry the burden which i am carrying now... U GAVE ME a love, u give me a man whom i loved. but do u neo it's not enough... cause what i want is a SIMPLE PEACEFUL LIFE WITH MY FAMILY<> MY FRIENDS AS WELL AS MY DEAR.... oh please... give me some more...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cool!!!! after a confide to this post, i feel much more better... heeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeee.... maybe those who read this post may think i am crazy, depression sia... but somehow, at least i feel better sia... heehee... (ignore my post) keke... not for you all to comments sia... its my confide nia... hehe....

❤ ReflectioNs Of MiiEe ❤ ~ { 11:59 PM }
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